girl, you're nuts

J A S M I N E
awesome 18

surprises-
beautiful suspense,
my greatest love!



Cry - Rihanna


BE-INGS

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Becks
emilyn
jon!
tinghui
tracy
renzhi
yingying

105'08







when yearning for the care, love and concern doesnt reap any happy notes;
that's the sign that reliance is foolish;
when you're screamed at time and again,
perhaps like a verbal punching bag,
that's the sign that independence is a desperate need.
If that's attain,
you're in control of everything.
you can slap the mouth that bit you and probably rip it apart too.
to embrace fear is part of the despearte need.
to forgo some humanity is the opportunity cost, i suppose.
just heed the long stated fact that silence is golden.
let your actions prove it?
not after lots of misunderstandings and mental struggles.
quit hoping for a helping hand.
the best would be just cry through your pillows
cause your wails are muffled, and no one knows.
then bring on the mental fight,
and the cycle continues.

as you can see,
my reservations still exist.
if not, i wouldnt talk as if im a poet.

it's hard to be happy when you're a messed up shit.