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105'08
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todays were disappointing;
for a moment, i thought.
yesterdays were much worse..
it's a cross junction, once again. i want to pick a route, not that i have many choices. It's just i fear. whatever it is, loser never felt this dominant. Some sarcasms are definitely enough. Some flauntings are absolutely turn-offs, some selfishnesses are totally fatal.
Im not trying to be emotional here, but it's what of me these days, this week. I wanted so badly to sit somewhere off from this world and cry a hell of tears, before wiping my ass and take on the walk again. It doesnt helps, and it's evident i wasnt even practical and realistic once. but at least it makes me feel better. each day i wake up knowing im still heavy with doubts, fears and endless thoughts. I didnt know how to face certain people and i didnt know how to take on stuffs annd issues in my way. I thought i am up for something, and perhaps my forte would be that, i never got it. Is it just destined that i lived like a fool? I wished some people would come and apologise, even if it's pretty obvious the situation is fix, i just cant swallow and see some nonchalant attitudes. I dreaded to see some people, knowing she's close to me somewhere, tapping on my guilt time and again. I shoudnt even fear, like now that i am thrown into such truth. I guessed, faking normality helps big time here. Being the crazy, nonsensical self, it's pretty easy to get away with things. i came to realise a step backwards wouldnt erase the fact you took one forward.. and that's when it all goes around.
you knew the truth,
yet you wanted a lie.
i gave you the lie,
and you lived in it.
you left me absolutely dumbfounded.
take a look at yourself,
haven you been a little too selfish?
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todays were disappointing;
for a moment, i thought.
yesterdays were much worse..
it's a cross junction, once again. i want to pick a route, not that i have many choices. It's just i fear. whatever it is, loser never felt this dominant. Some sarcasms are definitely enough. Some flauntings are absolutely turn-offs, some selfishnesses are totally fatal.
Im not trying to be emotional here, but it's what of me these days, this week. I wanted so badly to sit somewhere off from this world and cry a hell of tears, before wiping my ass and take on the walk again. It doesnt helps, and it's evident i wasnt even practical and realistic once. but at least it makes me feel better. each day i wake up knowing im still heavy with doubts, fears and endless thoughts. I didnt know how to face certain people and i didnt know how to take on stuffs annd issues in my way. I thought i am up for something, and perhaps my forte would be that, i never got it. Is it just destined that i lived like a fool? I wished some people would come and apologise, even if it's pretty obvious the situation is fix, i just cant swallow and see some nonchalant attitudes. I dreaded to see some people, knowing she's close to me somewhere, tapping on my guilt time and again. I shoudnt even fear, like now that i am thrown into such truth. I guessed, faking normality helps big time here. Being the crazy, nonsensical self, it's pretty easy to get away with things. i came to realise a step backwards wouldnt erase the fact you took one forward.. and that's when it all goes around.
you knew the truth,
yet you wanted a lie.
i gave you the lie,
and you lived in it.
you left me absolutely dumbfounded.
take a look at yourself,
haven you been a little too selfish?
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