girl, you're nuts

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105'08







I'm sorry i can't lift your confidence. Mine is killed, and i'm helpless about it. As much as i wish to lift yours, i don't know how. Dinnertime was when the flashbacks striked. It's even much tangible with your words around and a pull of your hand and a concerned face.

I fear, for im dumb,
i fear, for i cant be a pretty girl,
i fear, for i'm too sensitive,
i fear, for not knowing where did i went wrong.
i fear, cause i foresee a serial of the same old shit.
i fear, for i know everyone looks at my every steps.
i fear that i would believe you more and more,
and at the end.. i get the knife head thrice sharpened;
for i realised sub-conciously i take it that we are.

the daunting fears wouldnt leave me alone.
i really really dont know what's the best for me.
like i said, i cant bloody count what's 1/2 when i know clearly im holding on to a whole.
i speak and behave with restrictions, but it's not that i've changed. I dont know what's your view of me.

to me, it's because of you, i'm afraid..