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105'08







Seriously, you cant understand how im feeling right now. With all the endless pressure and demanding datelines, i cant take it man. it's torture for me, and it certainly irks me to see how some are able to cope damn fugding well. AM i just downright stupid or what? am i suited for school? or im better off sniffing some fudging glue out there. shit everything. i have never been so wrong about anything in my whole life. I have never feel this weak before. i have never get piss off like seconds after another that easily. what's wrong? tell me what's the damn problem? There are certainyl lots of helping hands out there, and i desperately wanna reach for them.I tried doing things on my own, and i tried to stand up to these shit and kept telling myself im strong, and i just have to work harder. i dont know where the fudging hell did i went wrong! I feel so stressed up by the minute. I cant breathe, literally. many said this school is school of great chers. Fuck this whole saying. i have concluded im a terrible loser, but i cant believe they made me doubt my capability more than ever. fudge the whole system. I hate everything of my life right now. it's sucky. it's just pure sucky. especially so, i hate you mr fucking gay physic shit. i despise you like you cant imagine how i do. attending your lessons are just because im afraid of the principal. If god bless me with more guts, though i know i have so much more than you do now.. i would have throw a desk at your damn face. you made me lose every single hope i held for physics. I wonder why cant you just go and jump off the building. Since you are unber fragile, just pick any curb adn trip your ass off. you just wasted another place on earth where a useful person could be born. i hate you. have been flucnking all tests so far. ALL BLOODY TESTS. if i dont copy hw, i guess i'll just fail all my daily homework. can you believe it? i just pluunged myself into hell willingly? no aims, no goals. just tiredness, hatred and anger bottling up by the miuute. I never felt this stressed, i never teared this much. i never felt like giving up this easily. i never felt like these before.